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Throwback Thursday Stories: The Start of My Pregnancy Journey

Throwback Thursday Stories: The Start of My Pregnancy Journey

It’s been a while since I shared a Throwback Thursday Story, but I felt compelled to do so this week because today is very special to me: one year ago today, I found out that I was pregnant with Charlie! What a wonderful day that was!

Luke and I were married in 2008, but we chose to wait a few years before starting our family. As we approached our 5-year anniversary we knew we were finally ready to take the plunge. Looking back, I realize that once we actually decided we were ready to become parents, our road to conceiving was relatively short; however, at the time it felt like forever. After getting pregnant almost immediately—and then miscarrying—the previous October, I was starting to wonder if I was even capable of conceiving another baby. My cycle had grown unpredictable (likely due to my elevated stress levels) and I was working on coming to terms with the possibility that I might never be a mother. We refused to give up, though, and when I began experiencing the beginning symptoms of pregnancy late last May, I hoped and prayed that my dream of parenthood was coming true.

Throwback Thursday Pregnancy Confirmed

Like every woman in the midst of trying to conceive, I had a stockpile of pregnancy tests tucked away under my bathroom sink. I’d used them in the past, and with one exception, they had only led to heartbreak. But I had a good feeling about this time; maybe this month would be different. In the early morning hours of May 28th, I decided to test. . . just to see if my inklings were correct. As I headed into the bathroom, my heart resonated so loudly in my ears that I wondered how it wasn’t waking Luke as he slept in the next room. I nervously unwrapped the test from its crinkly plastic wrapper and unceremoniously peed on the stick. Then I sat down on the edge of the bathtub to wait for my crystal ball to reveal my future. After minutes that stretched on for decades, I peeked down at the stick, both excited and terrified at what I might see. And there it was: two bright pink lines. The test was positive! I was pregnant!

It took incredible restraint to keep from running into the bedroom to wake Luke with the good news, but I wanted to make the moment special, so instead I headed into the kitchen to prepare breakfast. I used chocolate chips to write out the word “Dad” on Luke’s breakfast plate, then I stuck a candle into his slice of banana bread and waited for him to come into the kitchen before lighting it. When Luke saw me heading towards the table with a candle-topped plate, he was confused. I told him he was having a special breakfast for a special day. When he saw “Dad” written on his plate he realized what I was telling him and we celebrated our joyous moment together.

Dad-to-Be Breakfast

The next several weeks brought a menagerie of emotions: excitement and happiness, of course, but also anxiety over the possibility of a second miscarriage. There were many, many more pregnancy tests (just to make sure I was “still pregnant”) and sleepless nights (not helped by my increasing nausea, which should have been reassuring but somehow only made me feel more nervous.) These feelings of foreboding intensified when our first ultrasound seemed to indicate that the pregnancy was not a viable one. Ultimately, though, my initial joy did not prove unwarranted: the nausea stuck around, my belly began to swell, and eight months later, we welcomed Charlie into our home and our hearts.

Today, one year after the pictures above were taken, I’m writing this with the most wonderful 4-month-old sitting on my lap. That first positive pregnancy test, and that happy breakfast celebration, are a distant memory, but the outcome could not have been more sweet. What a difference a year makes!

Charlie's Journey

C is for Charleston: A Baby Naming Story

C is for Charleston: A Baby Naming Story

It’s no secret that I have an obsession with names. I’ve been compiling name lists since I was a little girl, always in eager anticipation of the day when I would one day christen my own child. Not surprisingly, my husband doesn’t share my name enthusiasm. At various points during our last six years of… Continue Reading

Charlie’s Birth Story: Part Two

Charlie’s Birth Story: Part Two

(This is the conclusion of Charlie’s birth story. Head here to read Part One.) The twenty-minute drive from South Coast Midwifery to the obstetrician’s office at Hoag Hospital was not a pleasant one: my contractions remained regular and fairly intense, but beyond the physical pain, I was overwhelmed by feelings of fear and uncertainty. I… Continue Reading

Charlie’s Birth Story: Part One

Charlie’s Birth Story: Part One

At the beginning of the year, I chose the word “Open” to be my Word of 2015. My hope was that this word would remind me to be more open and flexible in the coming year. At the time, I had no idea how applicable this word would be in my son’s birth story! Charlie… Continue Reading

Personal Advice from a Mom-to-Be

Personal Advice from a Mom-to-Be

Dear Mama Kendra, Congratulations! I hope that this letter finds you happily recuperating from giving birth to an adorable, healthy baby boy. Please accept these words from your former self—written weeks before you were filled with the joys of having a newborn, and also before the days of total sleep deprivation—with all of the love… Continue Reading

Lately // December 2014

Lately // December 2014

Last summer, I waxed poetic about my love for the summer months. While I do love summer, I have an equally strong affection for the month of December, and all that the Christmas season brings—icicle lights, caroling, and evergreen decor all fall firmly in my “favorite things” category. This month has been wonderful but busy,… Continue Reading

Lately // November 2014

Lately // November 2014

I’ve so enjoyed writing and sharing my Cultivating Character series with you all over the last few weeks. It’s been an enriching experience for me, and I’m looking forward to writing more of that type of reflective/spiritual-driven post in the future. I have one more trait to explore, but today I’m pressing pause on the… Continue Reading

What I Learned in October

What I Learned in October

Is it possible that October is already drawing to a close? It seems like each month this year has gone by more quickly than the last. I struggle with the passage of time, often feeling as though I’ve allowed precious moments to slip through my fingers without giving them proper recognition or appreciation. These “What… Continue Reading